Sitting on my desk, staring out of my window: everything is still, no wind, no cars passing by, sun setting down... what a pleasant scene to behold after coming back from lectures and work...
One thought strikes me again: I think i would enjoy Germany more if im a tourist here and not a student. Within a flash, the horrible thought of handing up my project next week, the piled up notes that needs going through, the exercises that needs to be done, the past year papers that needs to be finished...
My heart sank. The beautiful scenery outside don't look that pleasant anymore. This Thurs is a day off in the state Baden-Wurttemberg. Sadly, a public holiday only means no lecture but more time to study and finish my irritating project. Exam is near, and everyone is nervous about it. My fren used his free time to finish studying the syllabus of a particular subject of the whole semester and is currently doing ALL the exercises available. When I look at myself, a deep sense of disappointment engulfed me. Im just the sort of person that one would not associate with a JPA scholar. Im not hardworking, dilligent or effective. From the quote " success is 99% perspiration and 1% inspiration", i think it is safe to say that my success so far has been due to the 1% inspiration. I really thank God for my brain. W/out its quick-thinking ability and good memory storage, Im sure I wont be in Germany today.
Im not the type who can seat on my desk spending hours on studying, unlike many of my frens. During SPM, I was satisfied to be able to finish the syllabus just once or twice whereas super rajin ppl like Soon Lee and Khan Ruey have already went thru their Sejarah books at least 10 times. During A-Levels, I was satisfied to be able to finish all the past year chemistry papers once or twice and went to play football the night b4 exam, whereas super rajin ppl like Xiang Yu and Pau can study the same papers over and over again.
If results are based only on the time and effort spent, I will be one of the last. But somehow, I'm not.
I dunno how long can this go on. I really wished that I could be as hardworking as the people mentioned above. Shoo laziness shoo!